Where have you been? Where are you going? And why?
It’s been a hard week. Work has been busy and nights have been fully scheduled. Time to reflect, read, and pray have been scarce. Just this afternoon, I returned home, read for thirty minutes, then realized I had a half hour until it would be time to go…again. I felt rushed, pressed, and stressed. I was not going to be able to do everything that needed to be done to satisfy my heart’s demands. I felt the urge to go pray. Thankfully, I followed it.
Something in me encouraged my heart to pray quickly: I still had to publish a blog. I couldn’t believe the conniving of my heart. I so often view satisfying Life as getting everything done that I schedule for the day. Writing a blog fit into today’s plans. Completing that would be a step towards fulfilled aspiration. Then I pictured the blog’s title, Desiring Life. Fortunately, I was reminded. I am after real Life, not the life that I arrange for myself.
Jesus talked about real Life being the experience of knowing the Father and Him. He prays about it in John 17:3. Real life is not reading the quota of Scripture that I set for myself each morning; it’s not praying for a certain number of times each day. It’s not writing a deeply spiritual book. Although all these things can be good, when they become the point, bad things happen.
I feel rescued. My focus tonight has shifted. I was reminded of Jesus and a discussion with some Pharisees in John 5:39-40. I am often a Pharisee. I study and memorize Scripture as if it is the point. Jesus rebukes them, and me. “You search the Scriptures because you think that in them you have eternal life; and it is they that bear witness about me, yet you refuse to come to me that you may have life.”
Tonight, I want Life. Not my version, but the Real kind. I asked God to walk with me and show me that the experience of relating well with them really is the point.